Quote"But you know.... when you're in the LRT and a woman is standing in front of you and you're not exactly sure if she's preggers or just a bit rounder around the tummy.... what do you do? Risk insulting her by giving up your seat OR just pretend to be asleep and not notice that she is there?" end of quote

Hmm interesting piece. If this is what people think of me each time I take the LRT, I'd never be offered a seat, NEVER! As far as I can remember there's only one incident when I was 4 months pregnant, a nice Chinese girl actually got up and gave her seat to me. She's actually have doubt about my pregnancy in a first place. The situation goes like this,
Two girls were whispering in Cantonese
All I could understand was "I don't know"
Finally one got up and asked me to sit
Her friend apologized to me
"I'm sorry, didn't notice/not sure that you're pregnant'
"it's ok, still early (the pregnancy) anyway,'
and I had a big smile afterwards.

That was the first and last...People are so ignorant nowadays. Most of them pretend that they don't see me or worse, sleep all the way to their destination. I used to notice courteous behaviour in S'pore MRT, where people still give pregnant women and senior citizen seats, but during my last visit, it has changed. The first thing I'll teach my children is these little things, that matters the most, if not for typical Malaysian, to me, at least.

Sunshine :))

I admired dear so much, not because he's my beloved hubby but at how he see things. He rarely take things too seriously, emotionally like I did. He can always figure out the positive side of almost everything. That makes him such a noble person. I wonder, how can someone stay calm when things doesn't go his/her way? Maybe, I'm still not mature enough to understand or was I born to be rebellious? (heheh)

See, we are totally opposite in terms of personality but I realize that I did toned down, become calmer since I met dear. I used to raise my voice when I'm furious, sulk when I didn't get what I wanted, shed tears when I couldn't cope with something. Dear was having a hard time to understand me when we were dating. It took him 6 years and a Carat Club diamond ring to change me.

I was feeling down today and he made me feel alive and happy once more! I don't know how he did it, but it works! Thanks dear for being a sunshine in my life ( sounds corny, eh? but it's true!)
Love you lots!

Life is..

I'm not feeling very well this past 2 days. Today, I woke up with a strange taste in my throat. It's like gases were filling my esophagus. Went to Putrajaya Hospital yesterday to register myself for delivery. I have to bring a reference letter from my current obstetrician in order to check myself in there. A bit frustrating tho'. No wonder I was told by someone that you'll be send away even when you're about to give birth, without that piece of letter. Oh well, luckily my appointment is due on this Saturday. Anyway, the hospital is comparable with any private ones, but they only ask for minimal fees. Yes, giving birth is not cheap. A normal delivery would cost you RM 1700 in a private hospital and can go up to RM10k if you have complications or have to undergo c-section surgery. That doesn't include preparations for the baby, nappies, cribs,clothes,bottles and what not.

Enough of that, it's not that I'm not happy having this baby, I'm soooo overjoyed! It's just the hassle of going through procedures made me feel so down.

I reluctantly drag my feet out of the hospital and as my dad were circling around Putrajaya, trying to find our way out, we accidentally found this beautiful house right behind the hospital. I'm sure the price wouldn't be as much as the one mama and papa live in right now,USJ. It is so peaceful here and what stops us from not buying this particular house, is that we haven't sold the old one in Johore. I can see the disappointment in mama's eyes, really wish I could help. If only I have a 4 figure paycheck right now.

Lunch at Jusco, Puchong. I'm gonna get a crib as a gift from ma and pa. Too bad it wasn't on sale . These days I felt so guilty receiving gifts from them. I'm a graduate,married. I'm suppose to help them out with anything I could not the other way around. All I could do now is spending as much time with them. I have 2 homes to attend to. 2 big responsibilities as a child and a wife. Last night I didn't wash dear's socks 'cause I'm too exhausted from my day trip.Even a very comfy Nike Cortez made my feet swell. Today, he has nothing fresh to wear. It seems like a teeny weeny stuff but if I couldn't do this how am I gonna cope with bigger challenges?

Baby's denim jacket

Marlia picked me up at home around 2pm. She's a good friend, one of the great ones I'm sure. Now I really feel guilty that I didn't invite her on my wedding. I'm so keras hati. Let's just forget the past and enjoy what we have now. Went to KLCC.. It's been ages since the last time she's there. Unlike me pulak, every week mesti pegi KLCC, if not to watch movie, just pass by on my way to Putra lrt. Parking je sampai 7 bucks. Mahalnyaaaa.. nasibla we haven't own a car yet, but when the baby comes..have to la..Starving.. lunch at A&W..cold Mozza burger. The worst fast food joint I've ever been too. Really regret spending my money there, such a waste.
Then we walk around, looking for baby clothes. Lots of nice and cheap ones at Parkson. AVENT products sold here are cheaper than the ones at Mothercare, cekik darah! Marlia urged me to go inside of Baby Guess. At first I was reluctant, remember the promise not to spoil the baby? On a second thought, I went in..since I didn't bring so much cash, maybe I could refrain myself from buying. The clothes are no doubt, soooo cuuuuteeeeeee. Prices not bad too! Saw a knit cardi for RM39. Neat! Then my eyes were glued on a denim jacket for the same price. What a bargain!!
Nak tak nak, gelek la kledit kad. Dah gelek baru terfikir, mesti dear marah ni.
Sorry dear, I really have to buy this one, it's so damn cute!
Thank God that dear also think that the jacket will look really nice on our baby. His only concern, 'Nanti baby pakai kejap je kan? Tak sempat nak berjalan'
Err...it clearly tagged 6 months. Unless she's a super fast one la, haha.

Penatnya.. after a long walk around the shopping center. Change to my cotton dress, slept until morning. Suddenly I realized that dear is right beside me, with his arms wrapped around my waist. Still,it's only 1am. Maybe he's too tired from his workouts. He made a pact not to eat rice starting from tomorrow. Betul2 punya diet! Best of luck my dear!

Had so much fun with dearie. Started the day early, breakfast with mama and papa at their favorite mamak called Sri Melur in USJ 17. Topic of the day, AF lah apa lagi! Actually we planned to have breakfast at McD. I'm really craving for it since like, months!But papa kinda insist us to have breakfast with them. Takpelaa.. tak sampai hati pulak. Erie has already gone to work. Instead of Sausage McMuffin, we had tosai, roti canai and roti boom along with teh tarik. At least we made mama and papa happy. After that, we headed to Bangsar's HD. We were thinking of booking some stuffs that will be on sale but the stupid boutique manager aka Milah, didn't even prepare a thing! The staffs were complaining and our plan were shattered by this so called manager stupidity. Lapar balik, baby Zaheen ni mmg kuat makan laa..Excuses, excuses.. Ordered the Big Breakfast. The tables were decorated with IKEA's colourful stripes placemat and a vase of plastic rose. Tak pernah pulak pegi McD yg go all the way with their table decorations. I was the one eating most of the muffin/burger. Dear is really on diet. So proud of him. Lotsa parents bringing their children for breakfast. One day, we'll bring our baby here. Really can't wait to have this baby delivered. It's kinda fun waking up early in the morning, instead of wasting our day by sleeping all day during the weekends. Should've done this a long time ago. Morning breeze is sooo heavenly. It's really nice of dear to spend time with me, when his friends asked him to join them for a ride to Kuantan(using the new highway, heard that it'll only take 1 1/2 hour). I don't mind if he wanted to go, as riding is his life, his passion but he chose to be with me.

Lepak in front of the boutique. Met a new friend, fellow biker and enthusiast, just like my dear Reza. I can see from dear's eyes that he finally met someone that could share his passion. And this Kuryakin guy (just like the air cleaner, ha!) build his own bike frame! WOw! If his attempt succeed, dear's definitely gonna ask him to made a rigid frame, the one he's been dreaming off. Nak pakai Sucker Puch Sally's..gonna take like 2-3 years. Jesse James' WCC lagi laa berjanggut. Price range between 5k to 20k! Ready je la for some real pain in the ass, haha! While listening to them, I remember that I have a friend working at San Francisco Coffee If I'm lucky, I'm gonna get a free Chocolate Ice Blended. And yes!She's there! Tak sia-sia jalan kaki sorang2.

Around 1pm we finally make a move to BSC. Dear shopping Levi's lagi. He's like a real walking model of Levi's nowadays. Oh yeah, before that we went to Motherclub (betul ke ni?) to survey the price for our baby essential needs. Clothing prices were outrageous here, so we went straight to AVENT products, baby carrier, bath basin etc. But, the clothes especially for baby girls are sooo cute, the little cardigans (which is definitely not applicable for Malaysian weather, unless if you're bringing your child to TGV or Genting,hehe) We've promised each other not to spoil our little baby with expensive clothes. However we've already eyeing ourselves on tiny Adidas and Cortez. Secretly, I wanted to buy pretty clothes for baby Zaheen when I have my own paycheck soon! I saw a cute little baby girl, just learning to walk on her feet and his father watching her admiringly or maybe proudly. Is Zaheen gonna look like that? Eee bila baby mummy nak keluar ni?

My favorite thing

I hope I'm not living in a fairytale. ' though sometimes I feel like a loser not having a career like everybody else but I'm blessed with love all around me. I know what I might wrote next may make you all want to puke, but I don't care. Since I got married, life turns out to be such a bliss. I'm lucky to have a very loving hubby, who loves me unconditionally. This morning as dear's on his usual 'finding the right tee-shirt' (he's a designer, who had never wear office attire in his life!) routine, he asked me to find one for him. I laughed 'cause I know my choice would never suit his taste. So, he bumped into his favorite tee and asked me whether he looks fat on it? Oh, dear, don't be so obsessed with your weight, you look fine to me. I'll let you know when you become' gemuk', hehe. It's the same tee he wear every week!

"Hmm..baju tu pulak jadi favorite"
"The only favorite thing in my life that will never change is you,"

Wow! Who would've thought he'd come out with such lovely words this early in the morning?
It's really sweet.
I'vel never ask for so much things in life except for a cuddle every night, our great pillow talk and his undying love for me. Yeah, yeah... we've only been married for 7 months now but we've known each other for 6 years and it still feels the same if not more than ever.

Mambo

What a bargain! Bought a Mambo backpack for less than RM50. It's gonna be our baby's bottle and diapers bag. Hopefully muat laa..It's a really cute brown bag with 3 compartments, so that it can be filled with towels and such. Had chicken teppanyaki for dinner. Teringin pulak nak makan.

To teach or not to teach

Yesterday I received a letter from Kementerian Pendidikan, which says that I'm accepted to sit for the MTeST exam on the 14th. Hmmm.. ingatkan dah kena blacklist. I didn't go for the last year's interview. This year is tougher and mama told me that 40,000 applied for the January 2005 intake. Last year, I didn't go because they won't allow you to get married when you enrol in the college. So, this time.. kena bawak perut pulak for the test. It will be in 9 days time and I couldn't find anything on the net to prepare for it. Belasah je? It's a good back up plan, manalah tau I won't be getting any decent job after delivering my baby. But, to be bound with 7 years contract of teaching is kinda too long! Is it worth it? 7 years is such a long time! Maybe I'm destined to be a teacher. All this while when people ask me why I didn't become a teacher, my answer would be , not interested. It's time to change my mind since I'll be having a baby soon. Teaching means more time and education privilege for my baby. I'm always scared of students who would think that I'm too small to be a teacher. Anyway, let's just keep our finger crossed. Hope that the 2 and a half hour test will run smooothly and I'll be called for the interview. Hopefully, the interview won't be scheduled on November. Cikgu Zach? Yeah, right!